30 Nov My Personal Story: Trusting God In ALL Things
My faith and trust in God has been tested and tried over the years, but one thing I do know is that God has NEVER let me down.
It seems though that my faith has gone through a number of tests; I come out of one thing, only to have to walk through something else. The last few weeks have been trying for me and I’ve been tired. Tired mentally, physically and even spiritually; like the world is spinning and I’m barely hanging on.
I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease earlier this year. If you know anything about autoimmune diseases, your body is literally attacking itself. The disease started off fairly mild; tubes of blood were drawn, tests were ran, medications prescribed.
Over the last several weeks I have noticed gradual changes in my body; heightened pain everywhere–all day. I could sleep for 7 hours and still wake up exhausted…the list goes on. When I was first diagnosed with this particular disease, I did my research. For some, this disease is limited and they live life. For others, the disease is deadly as it can attack internal organs. I was okay mentally when I was experiencing minor symptoms and my body wasn’t changing; however, as the symptoms and changes have progressed, so has my fear and anxiety.
I went to my wonderful Doctor on Tuesday and because of how the disease has progressed, more tubes of blood need to be drawn so that results can be reviewed. It has also been recommended that I see a rheumatologist so that we can work on getting things under control. My first thought was, “I don’t want to be sick.” My second thought was, “I don’t want to die.” My final thought was, “I trust God.”
Now, don’t be alarmed…I’m not dying, but my faith is being tested.
This faith walk ain’t easy, but it’s necessary; and sometimes you have to encourage yourself when you feel like giving up. Sometimes you have to look back and remember what God has brought you through.
As I trust God through this, I ask myself, “What does God want me to learn from this?” I must also choose–everyday—to speak life.
God is not a man that He should lie.
My latter days shall be greater than my former.
The Blood still saves, heals and delivers.
No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
There is power in my praise.
If He did it before, He will do it again.
If you are struggling with your faith and are finding it hard to trust God, please remember that while this place you are in may not be comfortable, you will come out of it. Continue to stand on the promises of God and speak life into your situation. He has not forgotten about you…”Why so downcast O my Soul? Put your trust in God.”
Just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean He hasn’t already worked it out for your good.
From my heart to yours,